. S E L F I S H . D R E A M E R .

So as of late, I've actually been thinking about what I want to... be. My mom and I were talking about it, and it sort of just hit me, so, I mean, I'm still going to be looking into it and stuff like that, but I think I want to be an English Teacher... Crazy and ironic right? Nicci was saying she could see me doing that, and Clayton said he had nothing but respect for that... It just seems weird.

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This song is always in my head. Or at least, its in my head a lot for the past few monthes. >3 (that and Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis... that one fit things quite perfectly...)

But its really a wonderful feeling to have... Feeling 'good enough'... Not for anyone else. For myself.



Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

and I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me
cause I can't hold on to anything this good
enough
am I good enough
for you to love me too?

so take care what you ask of me
cause I can't say no

So, I said I would do this awhile ago, but haven't gotten around to it/the time til... now. So, here are some of the pictures from the Frankfort trip up north... the one that pushed Nicci and Dylan to their current relationship status. ^.~ There are far more pictures over at Shane's Myspace, but my feelings for that place refuse to change, so the most I could do was go snab a few from there and poof them here.



( More of the adventure beneath the cut. )

So much drama lately. Somehow it doesn't seem quite so smothering as I recall drama being though... I still despise it though. After hanging out at Keatons a couple of nights ago, things turned a wee bit more serious... Megan and I had a really nice talk though, and I think Clayton and Keaton did too. Arising from it all... a possible trip to Florida may be in the near future... But I'm not going into that right now.

The other night though was Dylan's 21st birthday, and of course there was a big birthday bash out by the fire pit far out in his backyard. I really wasn't in the mood for the whole drinking thing, but in the spirit of things I did take a few shots and, of course, courage in a bottle that it is, ended up having quite a bit of fun hanging out with Shawn and Marvin. Towards the end of things though, shit hit the fan... It really isn't any of my business though, just... Lots of angry feelings. o_O Dylan fucking scared the shit out of me though because people were talking about fighting/what would happen if a fight broke out/whatever, and he............. didn't take that too kindly, we'll say. ^ . ^;

Of course, after that, Megan was upset, so her, me, Clayton, Nicci and Cynthia went to me and Clayton's room and sat around... and me and Clayton were dog tired, so it was kinda like "Why can't this be over so we can sleeeeep?" and then I guess Shane (not... Skindzier) got pissed because Clayton was in the room when it was supposed to be "girl talk" or something... which seems absurd to me just because... Its... kind of... our room? Really though, I DON'T know the whole story. I'm halfway in the dark on the whole thing, but I guess things smoothed out in the end.

But beyond all of that, Dee seems fine with all of us staying there so long as we continue cleaning the place up since shes paying for it and whatnot. I swear, we've fucking overhauled that house. And theres still tons to go. Lots of the shit is still packed away in boxes, like... eating-ware-stuff? Which sucks... for obvious reasons that nothing is ever in one specific place. And the foremost reason we don't unpack is because "we don't know how much longer we'll be there". Or something. But... if I remember, the house was supposed to be empty in the beginning of June... and its going into August here pretty soon... Who knows though. I feel bad though sitting here at home-home (I've actually begun to call Dylan's place home though, and for some reason I feel extremely awkward about that) and I know Clayton's out working on the yard and shit, and I really need to get back and start getting to work on all of those disgusting dishes....... I'm seriously going to need some rubber gloves and a mask to breath through though, because it can get pretty appalling.

My mom cleaned my room though. *_*; I had a feeling she would... Partially because I had a dream that they just packed up all my shit into boxes and stored it away. :/

In other news, I'm apparently suffering some of the side-effects of this new medicine I'm on. The most serious one 'suicidal thoughts'. I haven't fucking had suicidal thoughts since I was in late middle school/early high school. Not serious ones at least. And the serious ones weren't ever even that serious. Neither are these ones, but I'll find myself randomly sitting there, thinking on stuff... I've got a wonderful thing going for me lately, my families been great and supportive, its all -except for a few things- been good, and then in the middle of it all the thought comes bubbling up "Yeah, but it'd be easier for them all if you just hung yourself."

Easier for your parents so they don't have to worry and support you. Easier for your boyfriend so he doesn't have to waste his time with you. Easier on your friends so they don't have to deal with you.

And I know thats not how I feel, at least, I think its not. I know thats not how I want to feel. Soooo, thinking this medication probably isn't so right for me. >_<; Plus mood-changes is one of the other side-effects, and I'm pretty sure I've suffered that too... along with a few other things like light-headedness, nausea, random aches and pains, and things like that. Hell, it might not ALL be from the pills, but still.

ALSO! Amusingly. My parents. Will sit here, and tell me I should come home more often. THEN. They give me stuff. Like, I came over to see if there were some more of the Mike's Hard Lemonade to take over since Dylan was getting beer for the party, and they suddenly started like, throwing food at us. Like extra shit they had in the fridge. Bacon, eggs, green beans, squash, red potatoes, rice krispy treats, muffins, peanuts, GOD, so much stuff. And then, a couple days before that, my dad gave me some steak on a stick to take over there, which is REALLY good, and goes "Do they have a grill over there?" and I said no, but we could just cook it in the oven.

My dad, takes me to Home Depot, and bought us a nice little kettle grill, along with charcoal and fucking TIKI LIGHTS. I walked in the house, and told Dylan, and he just GAWKED for about five minutes in shock. So then we ended up going out and getting meat and Clayton made these god-awesome burgers. >3

Urgh. But, I'm gonna cut this ranting short. I need to go mentally prepare myself for conversating with my mother when she gets back from work. v.v;

So, mom had to be taken to the hospital again yesterday. Technically, I say "again", but... Well... She had to go to the ER while working a few days before that. She seems to be okay now, but not really sure how long that'll last.


EDIT: Hm, I had this as a private entry since I didn't finish it, but now I can't remember the rest of that days highlights. :/ *unprivates*

So my birthday wasn't too bad. A fun Sagano trip of course. Clayton had never been there before, and uhm... seemed to rather enjoy it. Like, no. Anyone reading this has to be aware of just how much food you get. The soup, the salad, the noodles, the veggies, the main course (steak, shrimp, chicken, whatever...), and the rice... Ok. So. He ate. ALL of it. ALL. He had his plate cleaned by the time the guy was handing out the rice, and after he went around and gave everyone their rice, there was still a full serving left, which I think they usually split for everyone. No. He picks it up on his little spatula thing, looks at Clay, cocks his head and goes "You look hungry." and plops it down on his plate. And of course, he ate ALL of it. I was amazed.

I got a Bacardi Razz for my birthday fifth... though in retrospect I am vaguely saddened by my choice. I so totally should have gotten some fucking 151. I love that shit. But I ended up breaking into a really hot sweat so I didn't drink much of it ANYWAY. I made up for it the night after though... er, last night, when Dylan bought a Smirnoff Rassberry >3 I was fucking fucked up. Partially because I was upset with myself for being stupid and just kept taking shot after shot. ^ ^;;;; Ooooopsies. And my water was hidden from me, and I had no food... or rather, forgot we had food... And thus, I had my first real bad hangover this morning. Well, not real bad. Just had a killer headache all day and needed to actually GO HOME (which I really have not done much at all of) to take a shower, lay down, and sleep. I'm still proud that I've never passed out or vomited, and most of my hangovers haven't been bad at all... Just this morning. And then Dylan took us out to Starlite at an hour that should not have been... in existance. And then I had to be miserable and sit and writhe around at Muffler Man while we waited for him to get his new muffler or.... something.

Anyway. My dad got a 2007 Grand Prix... on my birthday. Not for ME of course, oh no no. I suppose that doesn't matter so much though, it frees up the cavalier more for me, and thats good.

I got to buy a dress. A damn dress. Nicci bought the one I had wanted awhile back but my goddamn boobs were too big to fit in it... -___- Technically the one I got is a top and a skirt, but its a matching set, and the skirt is long, so... yeah. Everyone keeps saying 'dress'. I figure its easier that way. My mom said she wanted me to buy something cute with my money, I'd been wanting a dress for awhile, and I thought it was pretty cute, and thus, it was. I also bought... lets see... Oh! A really pretty set of tarot cards, which I've been wanting for a long time and finally was inspired to buy since Clayton can read them. I haven't been able to look though them though, since Dylan and Clayton both said it apparently... will mess the cards up if I do?

Right now they're all playing Magic... all being Clay, Dylan and Shawn, Dylan's friend who just got back from Japan yesterday, which is awesome. >D

AND OMG CLAYTON JUST HAD A TRAUMA BANG, LOLFACE.

Nicci: "I have a Trauma bang too~~"

*pets*

Ahem. Anyway.

God. My head. It kills me. Doesn't probably help that I'm on my period. *kills things* BLAGH. And Dylan lights up a cigarette. ; ~ ; Ow. Heaaaad.

I really hope this Magic game finishes soon, as interesting as it may be. For there is a Batman movie awaiting my viewage... Mmmm... Batman...

Blargh. It saddens me that theres 151 here now. And I do not even wish to drink. For my head hurts. *woe*

I need to go wash some damn clothes. Or make Clayton wash my clothes. Something. And I fucking....................... am an idiot and left all of my clothes at home. -___-; Dammit. Whatever tho, I need to be there by three tomorrow, or rather, before, for Jayden's birthday party. And I'm getting sick of posting random unimportant things so... LAH!

So, after the fun of Frankfort, we got to come home and enjoy a nice bit of drama, in which I felt a bit like a rag doll being tugged between my mother and Nicci. The whole damn family went up north for the Fourth along with a my grandma, aunts and uncles from my dads side, which is always fun, and Nicci and Clayton were coming along for the ride, but after the aforementioned drama, which I really don't feel like going into anymore (since its done, past, and settled) Nicci ended up staying behind at our Nana's. v.v;

We still had a good amount of fun though, with my grandma and uncle cooking really awesome breakfasts and lunches every day. Its in Atlanta though, and that place is basically snoresville, ESPECIALLY when compared to pure and simply GORGEOUS Frankfort. Its a kind of little old foagie hick town, but it has its moments. Kerri, Christian, Clayton and I ended up getting dragged into Atlanta's AWESOME [/sarcasm] Fourth of July Parade, which later my aunt and grandma made comments about how it was a shame Nicci couldn't have been there, since she probably would have had fun... to which me and Clayton gave knowing looks that she indeed WOULDN'T. I talked to Nicci earlier in the day too, and we both agreed she would have probably ninja'd away and hid in a closet until it was over rather than be caught dead in a festive, social event.

I also got to show Clay my favorite spot in the world so far. Its not a secret place or anything, its on a lake, at a campground, and tons of people go to this spot... but its absolutely gorgeous to sit there and watch the sunset over the mountains in the distance and the lake... We didn't stay long though, since we went to catch up with my family at Big Bear Lake, which ended up being a LOT more fun than I'd figured it would have been. The lake where my spot is is much more rustic and outdoors-y, whereas Big Bear is much more........... not. Its a campground, still, but it just seems... more... "commercial"? Eh. Whatever, you get what I mean. By the time we got there, Christian had apparently saw a leaf floating in the water, got freaked out, and wouldn't get back in. But me, Kerri and Clayton had a fun time swimming around. AMUSINGLY. Clayton was so hot, he just peeled off his shirt, and jumped in in his pants. Later on, as he was loathing his decision, remembering he had to get back in a vehicle, I suddenly remembered: "Oh hey, hun, your swimming trunks are in the back of the car from the Frankfort trip still! :D"

We had a nice little laugh over that.

There were of course, also fireworks, but nothing overly special or grand. AND we got to ride the quad around a bit. Keyword: QUAD, singular. The other one was broken again. :/ *sigh* But it was still fun.

Other than that though, there wasn't much going on up there. Soon after we got back, Dylan went out to Fowlerville and brought Nicci back over to his place, so we've all been chilling around his place. Clayton ended up mowing my lawn the other day and my mom gave us twenty bucks for it, with which we went out and had Empire Wok, which was nice. Which brings me to a new topic.

New foods I've eaten since we got back together.

Ranch dressing.
Fried mushrooms.
Omelettes.
Enchiladas.
Black Beans.
Crab Rangoon.
Frog legs.
(and if we want to be technical:
Whiskey
Whiskey
Rum
Vodka
Whiskey
Rum
Whiskey
Scotch
Whiskey
Whiskey
Though I blame Dylan and Shane for that.)

I know there were more, but these are the things that stick out in my memory most clearly at the moment. And let me tell you... amazingly... ALL of it... was good. Well, except for the black beans, but they weren't BAD either. That Ranch dressing shit? He loves it. So he finally got me to scarf some down. And hoshitwow? What was I thinking all of this time? That shit is seriously some awesome-dipping-god-stuff.

But anyway, I digress... kinda. BUT THE FROG LEGS! I was so amazed by those. It took me about ten minutes to gather the bravery to take that first bite, but I did... and I was pleasantly surprised.

Then uhm... the other day... which day, I can't really remember anymore, but we went over to his dads and I got to see his two nieces and nephew... and they're abso-fucking-lutely adorable. It was absolutely adorable to watch though, the older girl, whose 5, Serena, she goes "Uncle Clayton! Uncle Jaime!" We all had a splendid little laugh over that. Jeannie was calling me Uncle Jaime all night. But anyway, we ended up having a campfire and made a bunch of smores, of which I was placed in charge. Basically meaning, I handed out marshmallows, made the graham crackers and chocolate up, and poured lemonade. All simple enough... right? Heh. More hectic than it sounds with four kids (the three and then the neighbor kid from across the street), and Clayton and his dad all making them/wanting something. But it was really a lot of fun regardless.

Then Clayton went about firing off some cute little firework-doo-dads for the kids, and I hung around the campfire with his dad and neighbor, Cynthia, and it was all quite pleasant. I was exhausted from being up all day, so I was pretty much the quiet one all night, but it was fun to listen to them talk about all different things... I can't even remember half of what they were talking about, but it was just one of those moments thats comfortable and easy... I didn't feel the need to talk... I never really felt like that before, so its kinda weird, but nice. Feeling like a part of the crowd (even though they've all got twenty+ years on me) and feeling welcome and comfortable, rather than feeling the awkward need to force conversation...

Poor Clayton though. He got back from up north (Frankfort), and had to go back up north (Atlanta), got back from up north, and now hes going right back up again with his step dad, Neil. But since hes going to be gone for a couple of days, I stayed the night over there, plus, me and Nicci had been having a lot of fun, so she wanted me to stay, too. The task of staying, however, isn't always an easy one. Because, as parents, mine don't like me staying over at with my boyfriend more than... I do. ^^; But they've been extremely accepting of everything so far, so that makes me happy. Anyway. I had told them I WOULD be back that night since I had stayed over there the night before, but since Clayton was leaving early in the day, I most likely wouldn't be able to see him before he left, and thus, I figured it'd be nice to stay there one more night since I wouldn't be hanging out with him for a couple days.

GETTING A HOLD OF MY PARENTS TO ASK THEM, of course, is a completely different story. So after half an hour or so of failing, I said fuck it, and with Nicci at my side, we drove over to my house. Would you believe that out of my parents, my mom is the most laid back about all of this stuff? Ok, I guess it isn't too hard to believe. I suppose its... natural? For the father to be more protective in this situation, and a mother more understanding. It just always amuses me for some reason since we know my dad is usually the more laid back one.

But anyway, my mom agreed to let me go, so long as I, as I had suggested, left the car there in case someone needed it. This meant that Nicci and I were, as we had already discussed before leaving, walking all the way back! :D Its actually not that bad of a walk, but I know theres SOMETHING that could make it less nagging. Shorts maybe, since my pants did NOT want to agree with me. And maybe some goddamn water would have been nice. It was actually a pretty enjoyable walk though, Nicci and I got to have more Kyoki-Yume time, so that was fun.

Probably 3/4s of the way there though, this car slows down as its passing us and starts to pull over to us... and I'm just thinking "Great, this is just what I've been waiting for... Sexual soliciting!"

But no, it was Jason. :D And with all of his awesome car-ness, he gave us a drive the last of the way. Which is just always nice.

Hm, I think I'll do a rewind a little bit, since I transitioned from one topic to another and... skipped like, half of the night/day.

Before Nicci and I trekked to my house, Clayton and I went over to his dads for a little bit, and I got to meet his sister, who is just beautiful and going on forty... as we were leaving, in unison we both went "I hope I age that well." From there though we went ahead and got Nicci and Dylan and went to Borders, where I FINALLY procured my copy of the LAST volume of Dragon Knights.

Two-hundred and sixty dollars. PLUS tax. Well, also plus 5-30% off coupons every once in awhile... But yeah. And now. Its done. Finished. Complete. I think I read somewhere that it may continue, but I seriously don't know about that.

After that, we went to a really nice Chinese Buffet, Dylan's treat. It was shear awesome. And I got praised because I ate an entire plate! :3

THEN after that came the driving and the walking and stuff.

So back to what I was saying then. So we chilled around for awhile, not really doing much that I can remember. Shower. Reading. Games. Dylan, Clayton, and myself are all on a Pokemon kick right now, having a bunch of fun with the whole: reliving our childhood.

I also FINALLY got Okami a couple of days ago. Random, but it made me happy.

Anyway, that was digression. So I was laying in the back room, which was once Tylers room, but is now, moreso, me and Clayton's room? We always call it "Tylers room" though... but WEIRDLY, this morning, I was like "Come to my room real fast..." Which was just REALLY weird since I didn't mean to? *shrug* But anyway, I was laying back there Pokemon-ing, letting Dylan and Clayton have guy time since Nicci was sleeping in Dylan's room, and I didn't feel like inhaling their cigarette smoke on the count that I was feeling crazy ill all day. By crazy I mean, ill in ways I can't recall ever feeling ill before. I think its my new medicine though, since its supposed to have side-effects like that... or something.

But when Dylan went to bed, I went back out there, since a good portion of the point in me staying there was to spend a bit of time with Clayton before he left and all. So we laid around looking for movies, and ended up putting my Robin Hood VHS in and watching that. I was dog-tired this entire time though, so I actually fell asleep there for a little bit, retreated to the room for a bit, soon followed by him... and oh... dear... god...


He gave me the most awesomest full body massage last night. * o * Feet included! And I hate people touching my feet more than I hate.........................

...Well, maybe that is what I hate the most. O _ o;

Anyway. It was wonderful. I never had someone dote over me like that. And when I was feeling sick he got out of bed and got me Tums and water... I really hate being sick, but as selfish and spoiled as it may sound, its really just so nice to be taken care of like that. And GOD the massage! My body aches for another one.

BLAGH, This is getting to be an extremely long ramble. And I completely forgot about Wall-E!!!! D:

If you haven't seen it yet, DO. Shane treated me and Clayton to a movie, which was of course....... DUH. And omg... When I first saw it, I was honestly, a little appalled, and more than apprehensive. I saw a preview for it at Indiana Jones I believe, and it looked slightly more interesting and appealing, and hello? Free movie. So yeah, it ended up being ten times better than I could have ever imagined. Me and Clayton were just loving it, and I think we drive Nicci crazy with how much we quote it. Seriously though, its just adorable! And I personally think they've got the future of humans down to a T. Which is just sad, sad, and sad.

But yes. I would definately recommend this to anyone. Its a great family movie, just... fun, and adorable and... BLAGH. *dies some*

But with that said, I think I'll end this here. Its dragged on long enough.







"I want you to be happy, for our last days together." he says, and I ache... and cry.

Lately, I think I've felt more alive than I have... in a long, long time. Really, I'm not sure if I've ever been this... content? I mean, I'm actually going out. Doing things. With people. Having fun. It happened so quickly I hardly even noticed, and now it just seems so natural to be doing all of these things all of the time. Theres been some drama here and there, but nothing too over the top, and nothing that wasn't taken care of by the end of the hour or day.

Right now I'm up north in Frankfort, a bit south of Traverse City, and on Lake Michigan in a nice comfy little cafe. Myself, Nicci, Clayton, Shane, and Dylan have been camping out in tents on Dylan's families property. Its just been a crazy week. Drinking every night, eating out for breakfast and dinner, swimming in Lake Michigan every day (minus today so far...). We got to rent mopeds and drive all around which was just crazy fun, got to go out and sit by a light house and watch the sunset, go play put-put on a crazy-fun course (learning that I actually enjoy the game and actually getting three holes in one... though I still lost with a miserable score of 72... Which, actually, me and Nicci astoundingly tied on.). Fuck, what else did we do? So much stuff, I knew I'd forget if I didn't write it down. We were gonna rent a boat and/or canoes, but sadly weren't able to.

I'll probably go into it in more detail once I get home, if I get enough time. ^^; For now, I've only got 20 minutes, and Nicci will be wanting to get on soon. I'll almost definately have pictures to post as well once I can get Shane to send them to me.

Quiz-O-Rama: The Sequel...er... triquel? er.........

You Are 42% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

Yay!! That makes me unbelievably happy, even if it is just a little "stupid online quiz"... I definately strive to maintain a certain balance, since I know I can be selfish, but like to give things in return, too.

( And one more time, under the cut. )

And holy shit, there are no more quiz tabs that have been opened. All the tabs are gone! And thus, the post is finished.

Quiz-O-Rama Part 1

You Belong in Dublin

Friendly and down to earth, you want to enjoy Europe without snobbery or pretensions. You're the perfect person to go wild on a pub crawl... or enjoy a quiet bike ride through the old part of town.

Hm, I think that sounds right. As mentioned before, and is common knowledge, I don't drink so much. I'm into more small, light drinks when I do drink anything. But I think I'd have a lot of fun tagging along nonetheless.

( More under the cut. )

So, I'm happy? For many reasons. Some I don't care to go into for varying peoples feelings on the topic, some because I'm too lazy and forgetful to remember every detail.

So, we had an up north trip last weekend. Me, my dad, and Nicci all went up to Atlanta and got to stay in a rather nice/awesome room thanks to my grandma. We didn't exactly do a bunch the first day or two, but on Sunday we did... quite a bit, really. We drove off to Traverse City, where I'd never been before, and might I say, its absolutely fucking gorgeous. I love it... Just... surrounded by water, and with all of these gorgeous hotels... UGH. We went there because my dad had seen a thing about a Japanese museum exhibit going on there. Of course, problem was, it was Sunday, and the Chamber of Commerce was closed, so we couldn't get information on just where exactly the exhibit-thing WAS. So we ended up walking around downtown for a good while, which was really nice and fun. Of course, we didn't have a lot of money, but it was fine without it, just getting some ice cream... from Coldstone... which in my opinion... was NOT worth it. I don't know. it was good, yes. Delicious maybe even. But nothing abnormally special? Theres a nice ice cream shop in Lewiston where my grandma and grandpa have property and where we usually go... a sort of mom and pop ice cream place that has the most OUTRAGEOUSLY awesome ice cream. We made sure to make a trip there after the point. >D

When we got back to my uncles property, we got to go out on the quads, which was Nicci's first time doing that. Dear god it was awesomely fun. And we got to go out in our other relatives property, back on their trails and shit... Dusty as fuck, but worth it. And on the note of dirt and quads... uhm... HOT MEN GALORE UP THERE. They were fucking everywhere, I kid you not. On quads. This one guy I saw several times here and there in a muscle shirt just... all dirtied up... and... UGH...

Okokok, but seriously. I think Nicci had a lot of fun, I'm really glad for that. ^ - ^ My aunt and uncle were awesome per usual, and of course, grandma had brought tons and tons of snack foods up for us to munch on the whole time.

Gonna fast-foreward to home-tiem now though. Nicci had already met Dylan, but this time she got to meet the rest of the guys, too. Per usual there was much drinking and merriment over at Dylan's, and we basically just had an all-out awesome time, in my humble opinion. Ultimately, Clayton, Shane, Nicci and I all made plans for Ann Arbor the... what was it... following day?

Damnit, I just remembered, I still have to get 20 bucks for Jason so I can get my wonderful Sephi doll from him. *_*

Anyway. So. First we made a stop at Great Lakes Crossing. I love that fucking place. And Shane was spoiling Nicci like awesome. Bought her an L t-shirt, and L mug... Then of course we got Orange Chicken... and of course, then proceeded to go DDRing... AND OMG. Fucking Clayton. Claims hes never played DDR. But he did pretty damn awesome at Sakura on his first attempt. GRANTED it was on Beginner mode. But Sakura is a pretty damn difficult song for someone whose never played before. Then again, I guess he did play that one version on the computer so maybe that helps? Or... HE LIES. [heheh]

Of course... DDRing after orange chicken = not best idea. I was just... ILL after that point. That, and I had my black pants on, which as some may already know, are uberlong, and thus, I have to wear my boots. So they were HELLA pained by the time we left. But Clay gave me an awesome foot massage on the way to Ann Arbor. ; A ; Feeeeeeeeeet... (Luckily, I was smart this time and brought along my FMA shoes just in case of such a predicted outcome...)

So skip the long, chaotic drive...

Wait, no, don't. I was laying down in the back since as I mentioned above, I was feeling pretty ill. But once we hit a big back-up I peeked up to see a bright pink traffic sign, much similar to your regular construction signs, that said 'Emergency Scene Ahead'. I was basically just like "WTF?" but it was SO backed up, it was about another five minutes before we got to mentioned emergency scene, so I'd laid back down by that time. But omg... Cop cars, paramedics, EVERYTHING. I didn't get to see it since my glasses were el missing, but apparently Shane and Clayton both saw a tarp behind one of the cars on the ground, apparently with a body beneath it... Is it bad that I was disappointed that I didn't get to see it? I FEEL bad... but... :\

(Note: Nicci sleeps in cars, so she probably didn't see anything... I wonder if shes even aware of it...)

Anyway. On to Ann Arbor. MUCH fun. We didn't go to Wizzywig, just to The Vault or whatever the fuck its called. Heres the amazing part people. I had around about 30 - 50 bucks on me, and spent not a DIME on anything other than food or water. It makes me amazingly proud of myself.

But heres the big ordeal. Shane. Bought Nicci. THE $400 CLOUD STATUE. Clayton and I were like, in a panic running around trying to think of SOME WAY to talk him out of it, since thats just an absurd amount of money to spend on a person you just met. But we agreed that the thing with Shane is, hes a NICE guy. He has no maleintent in any of this. He likes Nicci, he likes making people happy, and he...

Yeah. We were gawking for quite awhile about it. And Nicci also bought an L wallscroll and Tsubasa manga while we were there. I swear, I really do enjoy walking around that place a lot. Like Traverse City. Both really fun cities to walk around. At some points in either one of them, I'd get them mixed up with one another, it was kind of amusing.

After putting the stuff back in the car, we went walking around town some more, just dillydallying around. It was nice actually, I even got to walk along some railroad tracks, which for some reason, just seemed really nice to do... OMG!

And then fucking Clayton and Nicci teamed up with each other and beat me!!! ; A ; Well... they got those free paper-things that they have on the corners, rolled them up, and kept hitting me. ; ~ ; Not HARD, mind you, but goddamnit, PEOPLE KEPT STARING. IT WAS QUITE EMBARASSING. AND I WAS OUTNUMBERED TWO-TO-ONE BY TALL PEOPLE. *LE POUT* ; ~ ;

When we got back to the house, Shane dropped us off, and Nicci, me and Clayton went down to the basement to assemble Cloudy-poodle. OMG, I could have orgasmed that thing was so entirely amazing. I mean, seriously? That is some amazing piece of awesome. And I was just so happy that Nicci was so happy. After all of our worrying, me and Clayton agreed that it was nice to see that it had really made her that happy. She couldn't stop talking the rest of the night. The two of them shouldn't be allowed in each others presence though... ; ~ ; They pick on the poor widdle Jaime too much...

Anyway, this stuff was really not what I was meaning to rant about. What I was really going to talk about was short and easy. Like... The fact that I've been out so much with the guys... And my dad told me he trusted me, and that I was a good girl, and it made me outstandingly happy. And I got to go over to Clayton's dads house... and his dad is basically awesome. And Jeannie (his step mom, works at Atherton for those who know) was there, and I just loves her so much. It was basically a lot of fun. And then my mom called me the while I was at Dylan's yesterday and told me she was really proud of me because I made the Deans List at Mott for having a 3.75 GPA for the Winter semester.

See, that was the stuff I mostly wanted to cover. And the fact that I got hot dog stand hot dogs yesterday. Or that Clayton made some AWESOME fucking spaghetti last night. And we all watched Home Alone this morning and had a fun time of it. AND OMG. How could I forget? Shane treated us to a movie, since he was taking his cousins to see one, and me him and Clayton went in to see Indiana Jones. *is a huge Indie fan* So I was absolutely overjoyed, and just had an awesome time.

I'm sure theres been more. Actually, I know theres been more. But I seriously can't think of it at the moment... and this is getting extremely long... and if you actually read all of this, I really need to give you a Gold Star. And I have more blogthing!quizzies I wanna take... (meaning I'll be posting again in, oh, a few minutes...)

So... that'll be that of this post for now.

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So, anyway. My long-time character for my Final Fantasy VII fanfics. A few things have changed about her over the years, but for the most part, shes remained the same. Of course, with the arrival of Crisis Core, new information, and new characters, some more noticeable shifts (at least to me) have been made, but shes still the same girl, I think thats why I love her so much. This is mostly incomplete... Just glance here to see the approximate level of completion.

~90%

( I'm a monster, too... )

I got bored, what can I say? That, mixed with the fact that... I've been on a serious music kick as of late = music post. Throw in some good, FFVII fan-whoring, and we've got a recipe for... FFVII Music Fanwhoring? Well, not entirely, but there'll probably be more than a few FFVII-related tracks thrown about in here.

Note: I was going to add some more... you know... diversity, but unfortunately, my computers being stubborn and refusing to upload anything more at the moment. SO, there may very well be a second music post in the future. :\

Devil May Cry 4 - Shall Never Surrender (Staff Roll) - download/listen - This song has everything. Well, almost everything. The typical RAWR!!!! vocals one hears often from DMC games... well, ok, maybe not RAWR!!!! maybe just... rawr!. (I seriously love this guys grainy, growly voice though...) and then some "chanting", and some really pretty singing towards the end... I love every bit of it. Its so strong and gritty, the kind of song that makes you wanna take out everything in your way. >D Blagh! I can't get it out of my head these days, its just... sitting there, at the forefront of my mind, constantly there, poking and prodding at my conciousness, like "Hey, I'm still here." And all I can do is... play it again... v.v Its so fun and not annoying though, I can play it on repeat and not get sick of it, the shift from rock to light ballad-y-ness probably makes it more... repeatable? *shrug* Its le love, at the very least.

Shadow Hearts: From the New World - ICARO -acoustic arrangement- - download/listen - This song seriously just pulls at my heartstrings... 'ICARO', the main theme of the Shadow Hearts series, is typically an interesting, well-done piece of music in all of its incarnations, but this is just such a beautiful rendition, the sort that makes it feel like someone with a fist made of steel hit you in the gut... And I, personally, just love that feeling. But if you aren't the sort who gets that emotionally involved in your music-listening, its still a lovely guitar-violin piece of music... So soft and relaxing... ~ . ~

Final Fantasy VII: Voices of the Lifestream - Jenova Returns (J-E-N-O-V-A Jenova Complete)- download/listen - When I first heard this, I kinda giggled... In the beginning particularly it reminds me of something I'd hear in Kingdom Hearts... which makes me think of fighting Jenova in KH, and thats just... weird. But in a good way? Anywho, its... beautiful, really. Lol. Aside from KH, it also makes me think of something from Narnia, or Pirates... something big and epic, something dramatic. And when you hear those familiar melodies... (well, particularly, for those who've played the original, of course) its just... Something great. Something almost momentous...

Final Fantasy VII: Voices of the Lifestream - The Golden Ivories of Gaia (Various Themes) - download/listen - I really can't stress how much I love the Voices of the Lifestream C.D.'s... Hearing all of these songs I'm familiar with remade in such... frankly, kickass and beautiful ways. Some of them sound so techno-y and old school, but at the same time, they're carried with a much more modern, hard, edge... Others are just breathtakingly gorgeous, like this one. Like any 'staff role'-esque song, this was a perfect way to wrap up the C.D.s (though, I guess you wouldn't know since I only posted a three songs. ^.^v). This song is, as it says, a bunch of various themes in piano, light and soft-hearted at some points, more peppy and upbeat at others, its just a really enjoyable listen, which opens up a whole can of memories.

Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII - SOLDIER Battle - download/listen - Words alone can't express how much I love this song. At first, I was a little unsure, but before long, I couldn't get it out of my head... Its just... pure and simply... ass-kicking-good-fun. It makes me wanna grab a sword more than half the size of my body, weighing twice as much, and swing it around at things... >.> WELL IT DOES! [After all, that IS the SOLDIER way...]

Final Fantasy VII: Voices of the Lifestream - Black Wing Metamorphosis (One-Winged Angel) - download/listen - Last, but scarcely least, contarily, like the final boss, the most important... Now, of course, when I heard about another version of One-Winged Angel, I fucking flew to find it, ashamed I hadn't snatched it as soon as it'd come out. At first I was... a little off-put, by the opening techno sounds that definately remind me of some really old school games... Yes, older even than the original FFVII. But then it keeps going, and it grows... Evolves and becomes deeper, darker, more powerful... The first time I heard it was at the video here, and it basically just blew me away. It basically moves me to tears with how absolutely K.I.C.K.A.S.S. this shit is, the words are too few, and emotions too plenty.. *wipes tear from eye* So, download. The Great and Almighty God, Lord Sephiroth commands it. Kthxbye.

My great-grandmother died today. Its so weird. It never really feels... real, you know? She lived down in South Carolina my whole life, so, we were never really that close, but... My mom would always tell me, how whenever she talked on the phone with her, she'd always ask about me. She said I was her 'birthday girl', since she was born a few days before me, and had wanted me to be born on her birthday. Really, I don't have very many memories I can recall of her... She had a n accent I could never understand well, and when I was younger, I was afraid of her... Like I imagine kids would be, of people who are so old and wrinkled as she was. I say that in all loving, now, though.

She'd been having health issues the past couple monthes, though, and mom and I were actually planning on going down there sometime to visit. I guess we just weren't fast enough...

Even though she was far, she always sent us cards and money on our birthdays, and Christmas. Or at my graduation, she did the same... When my dad told me, and I was in my moms room hugging her, I just kept thinking about that thing she told me in that card then... To live life to its fullest, not to worry about school and grades and all of that, because I was still young, and had a long life ahead of me... Somehow, it all felt stronger, coming from someone who'd lived for so long... who'd seen and known so much...

Its just so weird... I kept thinking, knowing, I'd have some measure of regret. Wishing I could have talked to her more, listened to her stories more, about what it was like... living back in 1915. Living in World Wars... The people, the places... Its so weird because I didn't imagine I'd cry this much. Yes, she was family. Yes, she was important to me. But I suppose its like the old saying goes, you never know what you've got to its gone... Or... what you could have had, I guess.

So, theres been something I've been wanting to do for awhile... a project I'd wanted to undertake for a good couple of years. Originally, it started as wanting to make some form of "novelization" of me and Faith's RP, Fateful Symmetry several years ago, and then, as Advent Genesis popped up, and over time, many new characters and ideas, a story based around characters from the two. But, as we all know, I have a certain lack of... attention span? I get all these plots and ideas and characters planned out in my head, maybe a few chapters spiffed up and worked out... but then it all stops, as a new story comes... An endless, vicious cycle.

I don't know what I'm really saying or asking for here... An idea, a suggestion, a good-luck... Either for the story or how to work on it... Its something I wanted to do for everyone. For my own amusement and entertainment, and for all of my friends, and all of our characters, and the adventures and fun we've all shared. Maybe thats too ideological, or something. I dunno. :\

(Note, though, that if I post any idea about this story that are more 'creative' and story-related, they'll be Friends Only posts... So Friends beware! o.o )

I decided I'm not gonna bitch and rant about it. The game was, of course, gone. Been taking it in stride. I guess I'm just in the mood where I don't know what I wanna do. Nothing seems interesting. New mangas kept me distracted with sexy men. Bought anime, which also kept me distracted, but it still pisses me off on some level. *sigh* Thats just the way life goes though. *shrug* I guess I've been largely apathetic about it for the most part.

But onto the sexy manga men. They make me happy. ^oo^; sjdgkljdgkl BUT OH I'M SO MAD. So I'm left, mostly, just feeling exhausted. v.v;

Ok, ok, sexy men~! Sexy men~! I actually SCANNED them. Amazingly or not, I seem to have more scans of Shirogane-sama, but Akira-kun's so wonderful too~! ^oo^~!

So, the manga is called Monochrome Factor. In the dazed blur after failing to get the game, I took the car and drove around to all of the EBGames in the nearby area. Why, I don't know, of course they don't have it. Also to look for TotA I guess. I'm sorry Nicci, but they didn't have that anywhere either. I failed you. -.-; But I'll keep looking hard, so don't worry. *_*O I just had my money FINALLY and wanted to get rid of it I guess, try and make myself feel better. So I stopped by the bookstore and dove my nose into some manga for a bit. To get something I'm already collecting, or something new? I decided something new. Felt I needed that. So I looked at all the titles I didn't recognize and came, finally, to one that looked uber-interesting. Monochrome Factor with its sexy-boi Akira and his Shadow/Shin!Form looking all.... sexy. So I glossed over the back, scanned some pages, clinched it, and bought it.

Its kinda one of those manga that move quickly. Nothing slow and overly drawn out for the most part, and at the time, it seems almost completely random that Akira was chosen to do this little task that Shirogane's given him, buuut, time will tell if thats the truth of it. Basically, it all sounds relatively cliche; the hero, a "typical slacker" and "rebel without a cause" [as the back of the book calls him] meets the mysterious [AND HOT] Shirogane, who introduces him to the shadow world, which is in direct balance with our own world. Due to disturbances, however, the creatures from the shadow world have been slipping through into our world, and Akira must help Shirogane restore balance. Blah, blah, blah.

The point is: SEXY MEN. Just drool over the scans, already, damnit.

( Have you ever truly realized the existance of your own shadow? )

The title seemed better for this particular post anyway.

-__- I swear, I am just pissed off. And I THOUGHT today would be a relatively good day. Boy was I wrong. Not long after getting up I'm informed that "SURPRISE!" I get to watch the hellions. Sorry Nicci, stealing your term of reference. Of course, as soon as Kerri leaves for school, Christians crying, and I'm changing Jayden's clothes since they got wet. And so I get Jayden settled in and in his bouncer, and finally start having fun with Christian, and Jayden starts crying again and wants me to hold him... so then CHRISTIAN starts crying again.

-___- I vow, I will NEVAR have kids. Unless its with Trauma or something. People say they won't have sex until after they're married for "religious reasons" or whatever.. FUCK THAT. I'm not having sex until after I'm married for SANITY REASONS.

So finally, everything starts to get quiet, my dad FINALLY comes home, helps me out, so I can finally make something to eat. Soo I come downstairs. Well, what the hell was I thinking? The computer? Stress-relieving? Yeah, fuck, right.

But what gets me most of all, is that I STILL haven't gotten my Christmas money paid back to me. And under NORMAL circumstances, okay, peachy-keen. I might be a little impatient, but I'm not really gonna whine, most of the stuff I want I can find JUST about anywhere.

UNTIL I found a copy of one particularly SUPER RARE game.

I cannot tell you. How pissed I am. How much I am going to cry, how much I WILL cry when I go, and find out, its gone. I'll probably inflict bodily harm to myself. For serious.

ZOMGSOMUCHFUUUUN.

So yeah. Dylan decided to get ahold of me at a quarter to ten to get me to come over since Jason and Clayton were over. And, as recently divuldged at my LJ, I've been missing them a whole bunch lately, so I REALLY wanted to go. But between not being able to actually DRIVE there [being late, with people asleep and all it'd be interesting to wake MY MOM and ask if I could drive over to Dylans...... yeah. I think you can all see the answer to that inquisition right there], and being mentally and physically exhausted, I was pretty torn. I, pathetically enough, was actually on the verge of tears. -___- I'm not happy about it. I have to maintain a certain air of feminine strength when it comes to them, after all. LOL. >D;;;;

So anyway, I talk to my dad about it, and he says as long as I'm back by twelve, its alright if Dylan comes to abduct me. ^.^v So he does. And dear lord was it what the doctor ordered. I mean, I can't even properly document the crazy shit that gets said. Of GREAT importance, however, was when we all busted out in "I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW, THE RAIN IS GONE~~ I CAN SEE ALL OBSTACLES IN MY WAY...." and then, stopped, with Clayton pronouncing our every thought; "...Thats all I know." So then Dylan says hes gonna have to download it and Tyler's just liek, "No, dude, because in three days, we're gonna look at it, and be like, '....Why the fuck does he have this?'." Which brought up Backstreet Boys. And how they had to download some of that a few days back when they were downloading all the shit they used to listen to. And as we're laughing, Clayton is just BENT over, red in the face busting a gut... Because... he HAS the Backstreet Boys IN HIS CAR. So we're just laughing our asses off, and Dylan disappears for a few moments, before re-emerging... with Backstreet Boys C.D. in hand which he promptly pops into his 360 and blares on his pretty damn sweet surround system. >DDD;; So there we sit. Belting out Backstreet Boys.

(I of course had to mention me and Kristi's little romp in which we BLASTED my Pokemon C.D., to which Dylan was outted as having all of them, and the Digimon c.d. >DD)

Soo, shortly after that and a barrage of our typical, fun, sexual banter, what does Dylan whip out? [NO NOT THAT] His Naruto: Rise of the Ninja for the 360. [I'll have to take you over there some time, Nic >D]

Dylan and Jason proceed to play around, and its getting down to midnight [at which Clayton promptly whips out a knife and comes at me claiming to want to make a Jack-O-Lantern after I made some comment about the coach turning back into a pumpkin at midnight or something rather. NOT WHAT I MEANT, DAMNIT.]. So I tell Dylan I should be getting home soon, and he looks at me, after making new character selections on the game and goes:

"....Right now?"

And I look at the line-up, and simply reply: "After this one."

Kiba VS. Rock Lee. >DDDD

HOLY SHIT. IT WAS AWESOME. It was seriously like watching something in a show the way they were going at it. And I mean, it was NECK-and-NECK, each of them pretty much needed ONE HIT, and Rock Lee goes into Rage Mode, and he's trying to get a hit on Kiba, but Dylan just has him JUMPING AROUND DODGING FOR ALL THAT IS HOLY. And Rock Lee. Needs one hit. Kiba about two or three.

And in the last few seconds counting down, Kiba gets in that last hit.

Dear god, it was awesome.

But now, I am le tired, and smell of le cigarette smoke. So I must shower before ze softner of ze water turns on.

My throat hurts so much from laughing... But I'm just so happy~! ^oo^

Well, the other day, I finally reached the breaking point of my patience. I finally had to go out and spend my money. As my dad said later, "Nicci was right, you really can't save your money."

v.v

STAFOO.

So, what did I buy? Shadow Hearts: Covenant. I would have really liked to buy the first game, but I couldn't find it at any of the places around here. :\ Plus, I know Ruaki was telling me that SH:C was really good, when I was asking her for game suggestions, compared to the first and third one, if I recall correctly. And it really is a whole lot of fun. *_* Though, if I get the opportunity, I would definately love to play the first.

But yeah, so I was sitting there, playing Tales of the World, and I kept glancing at my Final Fantasy VIII game, thinking about how I'd been wanting to play that again as of late... but at the same time... wasn't feeling up for the mechanics and whatnot of it. I wanted something that enchanted me in the same way that that had. I mean, I've played some of the greatest games I've ever played, in my humble opinion. Persona 3, Tales of the Abyss coming straight to mind... But... I don't know what it is... I think they were just, entirely different experiences in terms of... story, game play, characters, setting, all of that sort of thing. I really wasn't sure what I was wanting... But SH:C definately seems to be giving it to me.

Not to mention, Yuri makes me think of Squall from time-to-time... not that they're HORRIFICALLY similar, but both are pretty stand-offish at times, and have relatively disagreeable personalities [though, Yuri seems more hot-headed, while Squall is more cold-hearted... Well, speaking of the beginning characters, rather than the finale]. Maybe its their appearances too, Yuri in his dark clothes with bits of white here and there, kinda like Squall... And then Lucia often reminds me of a dead-ringer for Aerith, given some obvious differences.

So far the game has held a lot of promise... Two discs and apparently over forty hours of gameplay, so we'll see how long it keeps me occupied. ^ ^ Right now I'm really shooting to get Kurando in my party. *_* And there are so many interesting and fun-looking sidequests, too~

And I love Nicholai... * ¬ * Everyone needs sexy villain-ry... And hes just so amusing to me... and hot... and definately capable of fathering my children.... * ¬ *

*AHEM*

So yeah. While the graphics are slightly lesser than some games, that does not change the abundance of sexy man characters roaming about. >DDD Of course, there are... quite a few... not-so-sexy characters I won't scar you with the pictures of, like Gepetto... and Joachim's not bad looking, per se, just... his voice... Its not that its BAD, its just, that classic over-dramatic superhero-sounding, which is what I'm imagining he SHOULD sound like, giving that hes... an over-dramatic superhero-type... :\ Both Gepetto and Joachim, though, are actually pretty damn cool.

Gerard and Pierre are here though... ; ~ ; I saw them while Kristi was playing SH:3 To the New World... *shutters* There was one part, where... well... I'll let YOU play the game, and YOU find out. And be scarred along with me. *shuttershutter,whimperwhimper*

Its also really nice to finally hear all of the music that I've downloaded and fangirled over for so long in its actual... place? I guess? I'm constantly jumping around like "HEEHEE! I HAVE THAT SONG! WHOO!" Shadow Hearts Music = Some of my favorite video game music evar.

But oh yeah~! Actually BUYING the game. So I drove up to Gamestop, looking around to see if there was anything I wanted to buy. Originally thinking I would buy... Okami, or Tales of Legendia. -__- As it turned out, I was about three dollars SHORT of what I'd need to buy Okami, figures, right? And no copies of ToL, either. So I returned home empty-handed. Shocking, I know. I talked to my mom about needing a few more dollars, but we're basically broke. Flat. So then I sulked around a little, debating what I really wanted to do, since I was SUPPOSED to be saving for a DS, but...

Well, somehow or another, Shadow Hearts: Covenant crossed my mind, and I KNEW I'd seen a copy back there at the store. So I checked online real fast for the price again, 24.99, and asked my sister to drive me up there since I didn't feel like driving up there again. Real short drive, sure, but hey, what can I say? Plus I knew Kerri always jumps at a chance to get out of the house, and Christian would fall sleep in the car since it was relatively late-ish.

SO, I get there, grab the game, go up to the counter get ready to pay, and the guy's looking for the game... and reveals unto me... that its a two-disc game... and they only have one disc. -____-

And so, I ask him to call the other few Gamestops in the area, which he does, none of them have the game either. And thus, I return to the car defeated. BUT ALAS! I remember! Many times in the past have I been to Media Zone in the Courtland Center mall, and EVERYTIME they have ALWAYS had Shadow Hearts: Covenant on the wall. So I ask Kerri to drive me there real fast [Which, funny point, she originally thought I meant GENESSEE VALLEY... And almost got on the express way before I stopped her... I was quite happy to know that she was actually willing to drive me all the way OUT THERE though... ^ ^]

Anyway, I run into Courtland, and all the while I'm thinking "Just WATCH the ONE time, they WON'T have it." Well. They did. And it was 17.99. Quite a nice shift in price range if I don't say so myself? Which gave me enough money to buy food for Kerri and I. >DDD

And that, is my tale.

ZOMG I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING~!!!!!

I had... A REALLY crazy dream last night. It was a Naruto dream even, which is crazier, since I haven't read or watched Naruto in AWHILE. But yeah. Me, I THINK Nicci, Sakura, Naruto and Sasuke were all at some waterfall having fun or whatever... And I really can't remember the details, but I know Sakura said something to Sasuke that somehow annoyed me in some way... And then... Sasuke got pissed and left.

But... after that... Itachi appeared at the top of the waterfall [guess it was a really small sort of waterfall] and he was wearing swimming boxers, and his Akatsuki cape... and dived down into the water...

For some reason, that image, of Itachi... in swimming boxers, and his Akatsuki cape... KEELS ME DED.

Welp, my mom had me eat some black-eyed beans for good fortune and money in the New Year, so I took the liberty of looking up more New Year superstitions online...

...and ended up going outside in my pajamas, coat, and some boots to do a dance in the snow around our tree. Which is apparently supposed to bring good fortune and ward off illness or... something like that, among other things. It was pretty fun though, since I seemed to have amused my family muchly. ^ ^;

But, heres to hoping 2008 is a good year. Last night when I looked at the big, brightly lit '2008' on the T.V., it for some reason depressed me. I usually don't get worked up over years changing or anything like that. Now I feel better, but I just hope it wasn't some... premonition of a bad year or something like that.

According to another superstition, if you do some of your work or... something like that, you'll do well in it for the year. Really, I'm not an avidly superstitious person, but it can't hurt. I think it'd be good to get some good writing in, and hope that it uplifts and inspires me for the rest of the year. ^ - ^